Lawd have mercy at the mess I can get myself into. I can’t seem to get it right. All I wanted to do was help someone out. Be a friend and have a friend. But that backfired. I ended up feeling like a judgmental Christian when taking a drunk guy to church with me. My kids were mortified, I was embarrassed and he now thinks I’m an horrible person. I am not a bad person but I refuse to have an alcoholic around me! I dealt with that for over 20 years! No way God would wend me back! I just hope and pray that he can get himself together. It’s a truly heartbreaking ordeal. I really do want to be able to help others. But, alcoholism is an instant shut down for me. I almost vomited at the smell!! My daughter started crying because it reminded her of her dad. My oldest son was just in complete awe that a stranger would thing that was okay. I knew though. I should have listened to my gut, it’s always right. My instincts were spot on with this one. But something in me wanted to see...
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It's okay to have feelings. Emotions are a part of life. Learning to control them is tough. It's a lot harder than one may think. You have the good days and the bad days. I have been divorced now for 5 years and I am pretty sure that the rollercoaster ride got a lot wilder in these 5 years. It's the back and forth, the not knowing. It's the constant feeling of being unworthy or not good enough. Is it her or is it me this month. The fact that I have actually allowed myself to get in this situation is embarrassing. That's not love for me or her. That is a confused man that needs to get his act together. I feel like no matter how many times God brings it to his attention, he is going to block it. I truly don't understand how he sees nothing wrong with his actions. At least it's not a different woman every night. But that one he keeps running back to She must be as stupid as I have been. They aren't in love, they are in lust. Both confused as ever. I truly...